The Girl in Metro and My First Crush
The
girl snapped at me, as if I was drooling into something yummy, which was not
mine, and the owner wanted me to shoo-away. She adjusted her dupatta and
then tried to cover her bare shoulders by pulling her short kurti. Her
face stiffened and she snapped at me again. I could hear the hard quirky sounds
of her teeth, pressed against each other. And only then I came to senses, and
shifted my gaze away from her and looked outside through the sweat tainted
glass. ‘God. She is damn beautiful and she looks just like my first crush in
college’.
Once
I read in Quora, if the stalker is handsome and well dressed, then girls take
him as secret admirer. Well, I was neither well-dressed nor handsome. I was
returning from office, and I was in metro. I was a mess. I choose a corner to
stand, and the girl with fiery eyes stood beside me.
Some
persons have these things. They’re like Jatinga Fire. Innocent birds burn
themselves to death. My first crush in college had this ‘Jatinga’ thing. Her
reputation reached to college even before we were admitted and our class
started.
‘You
know, there’s a girl in my school. Simply wow. We were in same class. And I
heard she has taken admission to this college’. I didn’t know the guy in front
of me was happy or sad. Obviously the ‘wow’ meant that the girl was out of his
bound, and he too didn’t find any chance. But it was my first week in college,
and I wanted to hear more and more about girls. So I kept hearing him, until
oneday he came hurriedly, all sweating and announced as if winning a lottery
that the girl was here. In this freaking college.
She
was more than beautiful. Short hair and a soft melodic voice gave her an
appearance of confident smart woman, who knew what she was doing unlike others.
Like Jatinga Fire maybe. Burn them all.
And
this girl in metro reminded me of her. As I was glued to her little round eyes
and shoulder length short hair, I remembered the days I spent in college. I
used to wait for her bursting smile, having a cascading effect over all poor
souls. Back in hostel, I used to write diary and only the words were comfort
during night, when her pictures were all over my tiny room. At morning during
class, I used to sit behind her just to smell her flowery hair and sweet
intoxicated fragrance. And when we became friends, I used to listen her songs.
God. She had a great voice.
My
crush lasted for long three years. The first two years I was hopeless. Friends
pulled my legs and then some comforted and advised to open my heart to her. And
I was in this classic dilemma. What if she says no! Blah blah blah. But then
something happened in last year.
A
professor was in due retirement and we planned a farewell party. So I was in
this bakery & sweet shop near my college on a sultry Sunday afternoon, hoping
to persuade the rotund middle aged uncle seated at cash counter to cough up
some money. It was going nowhere. I was hopeless. And then she entered. All
alone. In a beautiful blue dress.
‘Hi’,
I managed somehow. It was a surprise for no reason.
‘What
are you doing here?’
‘Mmm..nothing.
Just for some donation’, I shot back, ‘What are you doing here?’
‘I
was feeling bored at hostel. So thought of eating something. Do you like Misti
Doi?’
I
forgot the donation and the uncle. I spent the afternoon with her eating sweets
and drinking tea, and then strolled the evening with laugh. And then when we stood
in front of her hostel gate, I asked, ‘What’s the smell coming from your body?’
‘What?
What smell? Is it bad?’ she tried to smell her own dress.
‘No
no. I love that. It’s like an unknown flower of jungle’.
She
stopped for a second or two and then looked at me. Oh boy. Jantinga fire.
Before turning back and vanishing behind the wall, she uttered, ‘I like your
smell too.’
Dwarka
Mor. My station had come. For a moment, I thought I’d explain to the girl
everything. I didn’t mean to ogle her or something. She just started a chain of
nostalgias in my head, and I couldn’t help it.
But
then what the hell. When I was neither handsome nor well-dressed, girls were
supposed to take me a strange stalker, not a secret admirer. I got down.
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